Monday, September 17, 2012

Pt. 4


The morning the panel was meeting to make their decision, my heart would NOT stop racing.  I wasn't nervous at all - it was the anticipation of the future being shaped as I took each breath.  Somewhere, people were talking about her, about us, and carefully considering. 

Thinking about it was going to put me beside myself so I started playing music.  The same song, over and over again - gentle, calm, soothing... focusing.



 


It worked.  My heartbeat slowed... I calmed down... I prayed, and waited.

And then the call.

"We've chosen you to be S's family."

And I burst into tears.

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