The morning the panel was meeting to make their decision, my heart would NOT stop racing. I wasn't nervous at all - it was the anticipation of the future being shaped as I took each breath. Somewhere, people were talking about her, about us, and carefully considering.
Thinking about it was going to put me beside myself so I started playing music. The same song, over and over again - gentle, calm, soothing... focusing.
It worked. My heartbeat slowed... I calmed down... I prayed, and waited.
And then the call.
"We've chosen you to be S's family."
And I burst into tears.
"We've chosen you to be S's family."
And I burst into tears.
